November 2014 | Being Jane

Friday, November 21, 2014

Good Morning, Friends

If you were sitting on my couch right now you would be forced to snuggle with my 3-year-old. Daniel Tiger would be on tv. Crumbs would be on the couch from her breakfast. My hair would be standing on end in a messy, dirty bun. Yesterday's makeup under my eyes.

But I have coffee! You wouldn't mind all that would you? I'm always good for a chat. I would love to actually have each of you over individually to chat, drink some yummy coffee, and relax together. But oh man, the miles that separate us are long! Schedules get in the way. And we resort to social media to stay in touch.

I've been feeling good lately. On Tuesday we found out we were approved to lease our first house! I am beyond thrilled, and we move in on March 7th. The neighborhood park is across from our house, the pool has a gated splash pad, and the neighborhood has a soccer field, volleyball court, and tennis courts! 

Do you want to help me pack? I'm the worst at packing motivation. I love unpacking, putting away, and organizing... But I have the process of cleaning up! My house is a reflection of that. It is clean, but not mess free. 

What state do you live in? Maybe you aren't so far after all.

Monday, November 10, 2014

Getting Back To Basics

I'm going old school here. I've decided to blog for me, and wrote about what comes to my mind and heart each day, regardless of how mundane or exciting it may be for others to read. 

I started this blog to be my space. And even though it has kept up that expectation that I set, I have fallen into the classic trap that all bloggers face at some point... Worrying about numbers, readers, content, photo quality, and monetization. 

Even though there is nothing wrong with those things, it can consume a blogger and make their blog feel unrelatable and cookie cutter. 

I don't want to be that. 

I want to write, relate to you friends, and enjoy this space that is mine. The name "Being Jane" was such a great switch for me, because I feel that it fits, it encompasses how I want this blog to come across... Classic and authentic, with a welcoming, nostalgic feel.

How do I make sure that that is my voice? By writing from my heart and head, without worrying about whether or not the post is pin-able or tweet-worthy. 

I love all of you and I feel blessed that you're still reading. Thank you, it means so much.

Sunday, November 9, 2014

I've Lost It

I've dropped the ball in every area except my home life. Even though I am struggling with the reality of that statement (see: guilt) I guess that isn't so bad. If I was neglecting my family for blogging and social media I could see how the guilt would be valid. But instead I know I have my priorities right. 

Regardless of that, it doesn't make me feel any better to know I am behind in blogging, blog design orders, mailing items, responding to all of your sweet comments....

I hope you know that I am here, I am just struggling to stay afloat. 

I missed a homework assignment this week because I am trying to juggle too many things at once, therefore dropping every ball instead of maintaining a few important ones. This isn't the first time I have missed an assignment in this class this semester. My grade is at 55.3% and I only have a couple of assignments left for the semester, so I am hoping I slide through with at least a C.

How embarrasing right? There is a reason I am taking next semester off. Between being a mom and a wife, leading a Thrive Moms group, taking Emma to school and the girls to swim class, caring for two other girls in my home during the week, maintaining the house (which I am failing at severely), and trying to take care of myself at the end of each day... Homework is getting forgotten. 

I have two blog designs to do and I am two weeks behind. That is not professional or fair. My excuse is the fact that Aidrey's double ear infection has been taking every ounce of my "free" time away since she will only sleep next to me, and she wants to nurse constantly because my milk supply is drying up.
Those two aspects have made it impossible to get any online design work done.

Oh, did I mention that I had one of the designs ready for installation and my computer fell and the hard drive crashed? I didn't? Well then there is another factor that is prohibiting my success in that department. I have my iPhone, no wifi until Tuesday, and my husband's laptop that likes to freeze when forced to be used with heavy programs.

Do I sound like I'm whining yet? I am. I'm sorry. On a lighter note the girls' birthday party was this weekend and family drove in for it, and my best friend flew in for the event... It was lovely and the girls had an amazing time. I promise you all a huge photo do this week some time.

So, in retrospect, I guess what I am trying to say is: do you forgive me? 

When analyzing what I could step back from and how I could minimize the load on my plate, this blog never climbed to the top of the list. You all are my saving grace (after God of course)... My sanity... My little world of people who peek in to my life every week without having actually met me (most of you). 

That means a lot. So I'm here. Just a little quiet. But I'm always craving this space, and the ability to meet with you, and chat with you, however far away we may be from each other.