October 2013 | Being Jane

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

The Time Has Come...

Well, I've been contracting steadily since 6pm tonight. They haven't all been the same duration or distance apart yet, so we will see how much longer I wait at home before going to get checked!

Next time you hear from me there might be a new little nugget on the blog! In the meantime I have some fun guest posters coming your way! I will try to show Audrey off to you guys ASAP!

Send your prayers our way for a safe delivery please! And an easy time for Emmabean while all these changes go on and other people care for her at times.

Love & Joy,

Leanne

Saturday, October 26, 2013

I'm Not So Sure I Like Blogging...

Let me clarify.

I like writing blog posts and sharing aspects of my life with people who care and enjoy reading along. I like making friends in the blog world, big and small, and interacting via various platforms like Instagram, Twitter, etc. 

I'm not so sure I like the pressure to gain momentum. Since I took my break this summer I have felt like I haven't fully been able to get back in the loop. I feel like a beginner "newbie" all over again. My rhythm is off. I don't have the readership I had. And to be honest, it was A LOT of work building up that readership before. I mean, giveaways, blog hops, twitter conversations and follows... And I'm not so sure all of that work sounds appealing this time. 

It is appealing when you're brand new and wanting to get your brand out there. But then I changed my name when I came back. Was that a bad idea?

My husband urged me to come back when I felt I missed blogging, because he said it was my "thing". In other words, it is my little hobby that makes me happy, is only for me, and is whatever I want it to be. Kind of a creative space. 

I guess I'm just lonely in the blogging world right now. I apologize for my emotion dump, thanks for reading along.

Love, 

Leanne

"I'm alone in the universe, so alone in the universe.."

Thursday, October 24, 2013

What's Been Going On At Our House!

It's been quietly chaotic over here! Not a lot going on but waiting, waiting, waiting for Audrey to decide she wants to come out!

Last Saturday we threw an early birthday for Emma at the park and I made vegan funfetti cupcakes (complete with flaxseed meal.. am I normal? Lol!)
Emma loved them!


**Photos of my girls have been removed to protect their digital footprint**

Look at that snarky little face!


My grandma passed away this last week after a swift second-battle with cancer and now is rejoicing in heaven with The Lord! Wasn't she a gorgeous young woman?




My little Bean watching me play Dance Central 2 and try to dance this baby out.

**Photos of my girls have been removed to protect their digital footprint**


Tomorrow morning I have a doctor's appointment and my doctor will strip me again, which will hopefully get things started since I'm already dilated and effaced! This Saturday I am 39 weeks and I really don't want to make it to my due date this time! An October baby would be just wonderful, but not too close to Halloween!

How is your October going? Anything new and exciting? Anything I can be praying for for you?

Love & Joy,

Leanne

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Turmoil


Oh boy you guys. Life has really taken a turn. SO much is going on.

I am 38 weeks today, thankfully! I am in so much pain and discomfort I just want her to come as soon as possible. 


There are some personal things going on in our lives, too, that are making things stressful or "out of the ordinary".

And, my grandmother is losing her second battle with cancer as we speak. I am literally holding my breath for a call.

I am sorry to be a downer as of late, but soon you'll get a post with Audrey's sweet face! I'm sure of it! I do have some wonderful guest posters who will be featured on my blog intermittently throughout my maternity leave, but I will post as often as life lets me with a toddler, newborn, school, hubby, and house in tow!


Today we celebrated Emma's 2nd birthday a little early since we aren't sure if Audrey's birth will allow us to give Emma a party around her actual day in November. We had a lovely little party at a local park with vegan funfetti cupcakes, lemonade, and lots of playing in the dirt and wood chips! Emma was in heaven. 

**Photos of my girls have been removed to protect their digital footprint**

Love & Joy,

Leanne

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

37 Weeks and No Cigar

Well, I am still sitting here with a belly. I keep waiting to feel sharp pains or to have my water break. I will never forget the morning I sat up in bed at 40 weeks & 2 days pregnant with Emma, and felt a "pop". I was so pleased that I had been allowed a full night's sleep!

Everytime I sit up this time I wait for that feeling. Audrey isn't ready to debut yet, but we will know more about my progress tomorrow after my appointment. 

I am currently sitting on the couch while my newly hired house cleaner makes my apartment immaculate. This is unfortunately going to have to end after this week due to my income loss but it was nice for the 3 weeks it lasted.

I will leave you with this cute nugget today:

**Photos of my girls have been removed to protect their digital footprint**

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Jobless.

This is one of those posts that doesn't have a photo to go with it. I don't know of a photo that describes the life change we experienced this week.

I lost my source of income this week. Many of you know that I started my own home care early this summer and was able to "stay home" with Emma while caring for children. I have only had one family in my care so far, and as of Tuesday morning, I have none.

This came three weeks earlier than I was going to take maternity leave, leaving us without funds that we were counting on. I was our main income, due to the hubby's Master's journey and hours at work right now. 

Today I sat at the Department of Economic Security for 3 hours, waiting my turn and then being interviewed for eligibility for aid/assistance. We were approved, and that was a huge relief, but a very emotional experience. I felt myself fighting tears while answering questions about our situation and financial status. My husband works so hard for our family, has open availability, is working towards his masters, and is dealing with some personal issues that are turning his world upside down. Now my income is gone and I am about to pop with our second child and be unable to get work for a few weeks.

We are trusting God to provide and praying that nothing falls behind during this time. It is scary to be so vulnerable and to be at the mercy of others without the ability to have full control over what happens.

We ask for your prayer. If you have any ideas on ways to make money send them my way! I can't get a job yet, but I'm looking for small jobs I might be able to do in the meantime. Thank you for reading.

Love & Joy,

Leanne

Monday, October 7, 2013

If You're Happy and You Know It...

Today all I want to share with you is this video of Emma. I can't tell you how much I love this bean.

"Chai Tea?!"


Love & Joy,

Leanne

Friday, October 4, 2013

Striving to Impact Others, But How?


Doesn't it feel like life just continues in the same pattern every day, every week, every year?

I mean, yes, we attempt to fill this life with different things that make us feel like it is going somewhere, like we are accomplishing things, but are we impacting life in any way? 

Building a family is not included in this thought process of mine, because I think that is a beautiful thing. 

It just seems like most days you get up, eat, work, eat, go to bed, and start over the next day. Sure, you fill in those free spaces with activities you like or things on your to-do list, but do we continue to do this until we die? 

There are people that make an impact on a daily basis. I want to be one of those people. Even if I had a basic job, I would be interacting with others and hopefully impacting them with my words, outlook, or actions. 
Being a working-stay-at-home mom is a beautiful thing. I take care of children in my home while being able to be with my daughter every day. I get paid to play! 
We recently became a one-car family. I do not regret that decision, because honestly, I usually only went places with my husband's car or with him.

We recently found a home church to get ingrained in, and even though there are endless serving opportunities in the church family, I want to do something outside of that circle. I want to invest in people that are not getting positive interaction, people that might be struggling to smile that day, everyday individuals who are just living life.

I don't know how to do that as a woman who wants to be "home" with her girls. I admire my husband because he is on a career path that involves making an impact. He wants to teach college-level English (Rhetoric and Composition) to young people, not just to be a professor, but to be an individual who can mentor and invest in these adults beyond the classroom. That is his ultimate goal!

My school journey is focused on a degree in Dietetics (to become a Registered Dietitian), and I want to impact others by guiding them in a healthy lifestyle and diet. That is years away and pretty one-dimensional, considering they have to come to ME for me to help them.

I want to do something NOW. Something fun, that I enjoy, that is not a job to me, not a burden.

Daniel (husband) works at a popular health food store in the area and loves his job. Obviously every job has aspects that frustrate a person, but he LOVES interacting with his customers, talking about the "vegan" eating lifestyle, swapping parenting stories and tips, chatting about his school life and career path, meeting people who become regulars... He said he finds himself smiling without trying. That's what I want. To smile about what I am doing without trying. To show Emma and (soon) Audrey that there is more to life than the day-to-day grind. To inspire them to be involved in unconventional aspects of this life. That is what I want. Now I just have to find my niche.

Love & Joy,

Leanne

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Who Are We?



Isn't it sad how quick we are to judge others? Usually this judgement is based on one small thing we observe that immediately makes us view them a certain way. We may put them in a category, feel they are beneath us, better than us, not worth our time, or even think of them as "dumb idiots".

I know I am guilty of this. Just last month I was eagerly watching the reveal of "Dancing with the Stars" Season 17 contestants on "Good Morning America". As each new contender walked out I would comment on my excitement or distaste to my husband, based on my knowledge of said celebrity.

As I watched Brant Daugherty from "Pretty Little Liars" emerge from the wings, I immediately decided what I thought of him. I have never watched his tv show, and until that moment I had never heard of him.
Looking at his chiseled jaw, piercing eyes, perfect teeth, perfect smile, and impeccable clothing style, I turned to my husband and said "Oh great, a pretty boy."

I had already deduced, just by looking at him, that he was stupid, annoying, and only known for his looks. When he opened his mouth to answer the first question directed at him I just rolled my eyes at his smooth answer.

Fast forward four weeks, and he is now one of my top favorite contestants in the competition. His personality, dancing capabilities, and connection with Peta are so fun to watch and I find myself looking forward to his routines each week and ... wait-for-it ... voting for him! 
Now, I don't know him any better than I did when I made my initial judgment, but I was setting out to hate him and whatever moves he managed to bust out on the dance floor (this was only magnified by his comment on the season premiere episode saying he couldn't dance at all.... Obviously he was severely mistaken!). 



So judge not, lest ye be enticed to drool over said person's face and dance moves week after week ;)

Truly though, the real lesson for myself here is that I am quick to judge others based on something minuscule, and that is just plain wrong.  But I really am enjoying this season in spite of my initial casting reactions. 

Are you quick to judge others based on something small? 

Do you watch DWTS? :-P

Love & Joy,

Leanne

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

This Is For All You Bloggers...

Why do you blog? Why are you a blogger? What makes you keep on keeping on?

Do you ever feel one-dimensional? Like you don't know what to write about except this one small bracket?

I guess I am feeling discouraged. I am barely back from my break and loving the comradarie that is found in the blogging world, but I don't know what to write about to interest others. I miss getting comments like I used to, but I don't want to gain followers from giveaways and link-ups, I want to have people read my blog and follow along because they like my content.

Mood: Down in the Dumps.