As my due date nears, I am starting to feel like I may be an inadequate mother of two.
Emma Jane is my world and lately I have been so tired that I haven't been as active or fun. Combine the idea of new-mom exhaustion and the need to spread myself between two sweet girls, take care of the home, be a wife, be a friend/daughter/sister, and also continue to do school (and work once maternity leave ends)... That right there is enough to make any woman doubt her abilities to function at the level she will need to!
I know that I will be so overwhelmed with love for my girls that that will be fuel enough, but once the daily grind ensues... I get nervous thinking about it! I want to pour into my little ones, give them fun experiences, have the energy to do activities with them, to spend time on the floor with Audrey during tummy time talking about what she sees, to be able to interact with Emma in the way she needs and to allow her to do the crafts and projects she asks for like we do now.
These fears of mine I know are completely normal, and I know that it all will become my new reality just like the one I am in now, and I will forget what it was like not to have Audrey around.
Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers! Audrey will be here in 8.5 weeks or less and I cannot wait to see her sweet little self in my arms.